Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Being Denied of Sleep and the Little Things

I don't know what the hell is wrong with me, but I've been waking up at 4:30am for the past 5 days. I'm not saying I wake up and go back to sleep - oh no, I wake up and am out of bed and ready to go. This morning I tried to force myself to go back to sleep - so I laid in bed. I kept hitting the snooze which leads me to a question for the general public. What is the average snooze time on an alarm clock? I though it was about 6 minutes - my alarm clock snoozes for 15 minutes, which I think is a really long time. Anyways - just putting that out there.

I've neglected talking about something here for some reason - last week I did something I've been wanting to do for the past 10 years. I bought season seats for my favorite hockey team. I've budgeted and saved up some money - not to mention they have a really good payment plan and the tickets are cheap as hell. Even more incentive for me to move to LA so I wouldn't miss the during the week games. Anyways - I'm so excited to be doing this. I know its frivolous but I cant deny trying to get what I want anymore. I've come to realize over the past year (for various reasons) that life is way too short to sit back and not do the little thing that make you happy and that other people make think is an extravagance - you know? I don't go on weekly shopping sprees, I don't collect anything, or go out excessively. I lead a pretty humble life - this is my extravagance. I think maybe its part of the rebelling people do when they change their life. Doesnt matter what my excuses are, I have one reason, and one alone - I've wanted this for so long and now I'm not denying myself anymore.

Speaking of not denying oneself - I'm back on the job hunt. This time, its an aggressive push. I have two possible interviews next week. I have to figure some stuff out before I settle on a date and time but its back on. I'm nervous about the whole thing because I know its going to move fast but sometimes you need to be pushed in the pool to swim instead of getting the courage to jump in yourself.

2 comments:

Love you longtime! said...

Well Melissa, we all have to save for that ONE thing which we want to do. And right now i'm saving on getting myself a computer. I always wanted one... and finally I'm getting one soon with a lil' help from my parents :)

And all the best for the job interview

Johnny Menace said...

15 mintues...